Relinquishment

I held back from you
Because I thought you wanted that
But everything inside me,
And you, if we are true to ourselves,
Is pushing towards something else,
Something beautiful -
A warm comfort,
A sensuous place.
And now, I think of it,
I begin to realize,
That we are best,
When we let go
Of the thoughts that hold us fixed,
That keep the status quo,
Because hearts like ours,
Which are always searching,
Just cannot remain,
As they have always been.
What was must change,
And flow with time,
Like the waves we watched,
When we sat close
And breathed the same air,
When I had to resist
The smell of your hair
And the smile in your eyes,
As you looked at me,
And through me,
And into my soul,
When I felt your heart beating
So close to mine.